Intro - the mission of my madness

It happened all of a sudden...I found out about blogs and began reading them. For hours....when I should've been doing other things like working or housework. I am captivated, fascinated. I cannot turn away.

All of this has got me thinking. What if I could use a blog for my own good?

I have been struggling with a number of things over the past 3 years: my husband's Seasonal Affective Disorder aka SAD aka Winter Depression and it's effect on me; losing and gaining weight, my Christian faith, and my busy life as a working mom. Now I am on a new weight loss journey using the LA Weight Loss method. But after spending the money, I am hit with the realization that if I don't deal with some of my issues, any weight I lose will return. It happened once and it will happen again, if I don't do something to stop it.

This is my step I am taking to stop it. Instead of getting upset and going to the fridge...I am going to my blog. I am going to deal with stuff head on. No more food stuffing my emotions. I am going to let myself feel those bad feelings if I need to...get them out here.

Why the title Refractions? Depression has been part of my life for forever. Not mine but people I love...I suspect my mother had it when I was young, my sister struggles with this on and off, my best friend has the reverse of SAD...depression in the summer, normal in the winter, and my beloved husband. Depression make people see things skewed...refracted.